- Kate Nash
Someone that I know of through extension recently lost the love of her life. She was at a hotel with her husband, the man that she had been with since the eighth grade, and they got into an argument. He left and ended up getting into a car accident.
She is pregnant with his child.
I can’t imagine that.
We all have limits. There are some things that we can take and there are things that we’d never be able to handle, but knowing this doesn’t stop me from feeling stupid.
It’s been almost four months; four months and I still cry. I still feel alone. What is wrong with me?
I’m not okay.
I didn’t have anyone to fall back on. I had to distribute the weight among like 15 people. It took over fifteen people to love me as hard as you; to want me as much as you did, and I still find myself alone in the dark.
No one thinks of me. No one asks me to hang out…. and you know how much I hate being alone. I can’t stand it because I’m not very nice to myself.
…and it absolutely kills me that it hurts you every time you look at me.
What am I supposed to do? I keep praying. I just want to fix this. I miss you so much. I just feel like I’m drowning… still. After all this time.
You were the only one who really loved me.